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step into my insanity...

DISCLAIMER:: Do not read if you have eleven toes. Serious side effects may include: raging and trolling.

I say never be complete. I say stop being perfect. Everyone needs to stop breaking everything down into their ugliest parts and explaining things. don’t see things for each microscopic atom that makes itself into something so much larger. Whoever made them, made them impossible to see, so obviously they aren't meant to be. try to go places that you’ve never been allowed to, to see things that no one else ever has. Fact is, we will die. But the goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will. something like a landmark, a piece of art, or even just a memory, as long as you get credit. society is making an ideal picture that i don’t want to be apart of.-Crystal Bassous

I am a free willed type of person who creates styles for the fun of it;
A human dynamite, don't trigger me- I may explode anytime.
AN EXQUISITE ELEMENT of the periodic table, unlikely you'll ever know.
I hate people who do not study for exams, you need to work for what you want.
optimistic, there'll always be a rainbow after a rain, no matter how aggressive the rain is, just look for that silver lining in life.
Nothing can stop me from reaching my dreams !
Sometimes I can be a little crazy , okay.. insane
What's my secret to happiness? Music, family, friends and love ♪ just press play . ►
Sarah
Sixteen.
Canadian.Portuguese.Guyanese.
Scorpio.
Catholic.
Musician./Photographer/Doodler/Writer

Fuck this.  I have come to the conclusion that apparently I'm not supposed to be happy.  Everytime I realize something is finally going right in my life, my whole fucking world comes crashing down. Hard.  Maybe I'm not supposed to be happy for too long, maybe that's the trick or something, I'm not sure why because it just seems that way to me.  I won't go into detail, because it doesn't really matter.  Just take my advice, try not to realize too much that you're happy.

This is going to be short and sweet (again, sorry I will write something more lengthy soon enough)
Life is going great, today seemed to go very slow though, even though it turned out to be alright. Tomorrow is civvies day, a day where all the girls in my school basically dress up really slutty because they need a break from the ugly uniforms we are forced to wear everyday. Okay, not all the girls, only a select few, sorry for the generalization, but to be honest, it is a hefty majority. I personally don't mind that uniforms we wear, they're ugly yes, and over priced yes, but I like not waking up and frantically trying to choose something decent to wear. Civvies are much better because then I only do that once a month haha.
Thinking about wearing something just plain and comfy you know? I'm tired of trying to be dressy or stand outish, it's stupid even though it usually never goes unnoticed. Especially by...certain people.
Bla, time is ticking ticking ticking...

American Idol is on tonight, normally I don't like this show and only watch the auditions, but this season has really stepped up the game! Plus they have some great contestants! I'm rooting for Danny and Mitchell! If only people in Canada could vote.
Oh right, which brings me to a point, ever notice how American's come out with these shows, and then a year later Canada tries to copy the idea but it ends up sucking ass? Like Canadian Idol, Canada's Next Top Model, all terrible failures. Not including So You Think You Can Dance Canada, Canadians by far dance better, and of course, they don't make guys like Nico anyplace else and they can't make them better than in Canada! I am vouching that we will be coming out with Canada's Best Dance Crew sometime soon, and if we do, remember, I called that one!

Haha yes! This blog is longer than I originally thought it would be! I type faster than I thought...

Listening to a CD my buddy burned for me, she has great taste in music, I'm now falling in love with Stars.  They have great sound! Plus I'm already in love with other bands she's shown me like, Brand New, Metric, Interpol, Nirvana and Death Cab For Cutie.  Ohh and I'm also obsessed with this hardcore/techno band called Attack Attack!  INSANE sound these guys, check them out!

Todayyyyy, if you look outside of your house and up at the sky, you might see a bright green fuzzy light in the sky. Yepp, that's the Green Lulin Comet which was discovered only last year. I am so excited to see it! Hopefully I can get a good picture or two of it.

I will edit this and add more tomorrow...possibly....don't keep your fingers crossed.

Z.

When someone breaks a promise to you, it's really no big deal.  Is it?

So I'm stuck here in Religion class wondering, why are we forced into this class? We should be able to choose, whether or not we are Catholic. I am a firm believer in God, I pray, I try not to sin even though it's difficult not to. I follow my morals, I am waiting for marriage to have sex. All that jazz. But it ruins the experience in the class when everyone else is disrupting and mocking the teacher. Not going to lie, my teacher is really annoying, rude and loud. I hate coming to this class because of him, and my rude peers who are inconsiderate of my learning. Haha, I sound like my mother right now. Don't get me wrong, we usually waste time in this class arguing about stuff that has nothing to do with Religion, but it's a waste even so. I come to this class to learn and that's the one and only reason, and it's been three weeks since this semester began and I haven't learn anything much than I already knew. Stupid, pointless, lame.

On a side note, I have an earlier lunch today so I am looking forward to that haha. More people have this lunch too, and I am looking forward to seeing a certain someone.

Wow, the hottest teacher has now set foot in my class. That oddly brightened my day. He calls me "Captain Morgan" (thus the nickname) haha. Yeah I know it's weird to have a crush on a teacher, but it's just a crush I won't be doing anything stupid....

People are generally weird when you think about it right? We all have quirks to us that we tried to hide from the publics eye, and it's awesome when we can unravel when we are around someone we trust and stuff and have no fear of being judged. But we are all just plain weird. I don't really know how, but we all do things that someone else might not agree with and we think it is okay or "cool". I never understood what can be considered cool and what can't. Generally something that's cool is something that everyone is doing. I don't agree with that, I don't follow the majority. I don't want to be cool, I want to be myself. And if being who I am is considered weird or "uncool" or whatever, sobeit because I couldn't care less about what people think of me. All I know is that I want to be remembered nothing more or less.

Z.

The title of this blog may or may not be completely irrelovant to it's topic(s) but whatever.  I am a little bit distracted, so if none of this makes sense, my apologizes.  

Okay so oddly enough, have you ever recieved a compliment, simple or extravagent as it may be, and it can totally brighten your day?

Every time you get near you know who, your heart pounds and your imagination takes over. Is this the real thing that you've been waiting for or just a fantasy. Your feelings and observations need to be evaluated to see if you are wasting your time or if it could be worth waiting for.  That's pretty funny when I read that.  It's odd how sometimes my horoscopes are very true, even though I read them for fun just to have a good laugh.   Okay so from what I started with I'm going to go off topic for a bit because this needs to be said (or typed) FUCK girls and their drama.  I believe I have touched on this before but now it's really getting on my nerves.  But really, it's not the drama in general, its the fucktards that start drama on fucking FACEBOOK.  Like really? As if there wasn't enough of a problem already, you have to post everything on facebook for the entire world to see? Like get a life, or more like it, fight each other, and get the fuck on with life.  I basically know what this entire fight is about, so I'll slim it down for you.  This one girl...we'll name her Jill was dating...Bill haha.  And basically Jill dumped Bill because Bill's an asshole.  So now Bill likes Lily, some new girl at our school who already has a bad rep.  Now Jill is pissed off at Lily for being friends or "too close of friends" with Bill.  [Still with me?] So now some of Lily's friends have taken it upon themselves to start shit with Jill, even though it really was her that started it all and both sides need to shut the fuck up.  She dumped him, which means he is free to hang out, date, kiss, fuck BLA BLA BLA whoever the FUCK HE WANTS.  And Lilys's friends need to fucking get over themselves and get out of their business because it's basically up to the three of them, and no one else.   Deep breath. Okay, now I can go back to my little horoscope rant or whatever you may call it [although rant does seem very fitting].  So yeah, I'm so tired of horoscopes bringing false hopes or whatever, sometimes they're like mine yesterday:: You could be feeling especially attractive or friendly or even a bit more frisky! The warmth you radiate is noticed and appreciated. Love, relationships, beauty, and pleasure are emphasized now. A new romance or friendship may ensue or an old or current one may take a new turn for the better.  Read it...... yeah lame right? Nothing like that happened to me, although I wish it did.  I want a new romance to ensue! Or an old or current one to take a turn for the better.  It happens all the time to other people, why not ever to me?! I love seeing my friends happy, especially if it's like two of my friends getting together or something like that.  It's actually a really awesome feeling because you're all "AWWEEE" for a few weeks.  But then sometimes I'm like....but what about me? Is there something the matter with me? Do I talk with spinach in my teeth at lunch or something? [HAHAHAHA at the last one].  Wow, I'm whining.  Or is it really whining haha? I'm just wondering why the band wagon of love has yet to stop at my door.  I've always been the girl that hung out with the guys, they never really saw me for anything else, I was just "one of the guys" and fuck me, I still am! There's one guy I've had my eye on, and don't get me wrong I'm not all that into him, but then again it wouldn't hurt to get to know him better or anything.  Seriously, I can't imagine what it would be like living alone forever, although I'm only in high school and I've got a long ways away to think about dying alone or whatever.  Wow, let's not get started on that today.  Save it for another time.  But I do want to ask, what is up with guys? Why do they confuse us so? It's weird because they change their attitude towards us so much it's hard to tell if their being them, or if they like us! There's this guy, and well we used to date and he's acting the same way he was acting back when he liked me, which wasn't that long ago so of course I remember.  Now I'm not trying to say he does, but it appears that way.  Sometimes I notice that he's different, maybe, more relaxed around me than he is around some of his friends, and he's known them longer than me! Maybe it's silly, maybe it isn't and I just happen to be a very good guesser.  Who knows.... I'm going to end this, as I am going out to a dance tour tonight and I don't want to be late. Z.

Well, Family Day in one word...LAME

Well I had a blasty blast last night! The bands were great, the crowd was great, got a little mosh pit going on during We Are Bravest.


Thank God It's Friday!! (TGIF) Seriously, today was much better than the rest of the week and I am definetly looking forward to tonight!

Ahhh, the pride of a fucking job well done.

At the present moment I am in and out of my own home.  My father is a jackass who has random mood swings, he picks his days on when to be nice to me and every other day is left for his yelling and cursing.  I usually stay at my friend Nick's house and it actually is pretty fun.  His mom really loves when I come by, and I love that woman like a second mother, since she works night shifts and sleeps in the daytime, I usually try to help out around the house, since Nick doesn't do anything haha.  I usually help do laundry and clean the house, go grocery shopping and cook some nights.  Me and Nick play video games all night on school nights and make out.  JUST KIDDING on that last one hahaha.  And on weekends, can you say  P A R T Y?.  Nick has some very good looking friends if I don't say so myself.  Awesome times, don't worry, I don't get into trouble when I am there.  

Another horrendous day, which does not promise a very good week does it? Stupid Valentine's Day matchmaker...stupid stupid stupid!.

WOW.  Today probably was the shittiest day of my life, well one of many actually.  Basically I felt like I was fucking DYING of a migrane and of course some asshole in my careers class decides to take his FUCKING BINDER and slam it on my head.  Yepp, great day Monday....

Ever wonder what is it about your family that makes you literally wanto to jump off the deep end? Like I love kids, I really do, but I have this cousin who is about six-years-old and he really is insane.  Throwing things, biting, punching, kicking, screaming and I know you're like "well that's what all kids do."  Don't feed me that bullshit.  This kid is fucking ridiculous, I don't understand what drives kids to act in this way.

Well as if being sick wasn't bad enough, getting woken up by seven screaming little pre-teen brats definetly tops the charts.  I swear dead people could here these kids, at friggin' eight in the morning! Ridiculous.  But the day actually went better than I thought, even though I was sick as shit.  Met up with my cousin Alex and her parents who are totally chill and went to see her sister, Lindsay figure skate at the Powerade Rink in Brampton.  IT WAS EIGHT DEGREES TODAY!!

Awesome day today.  Which is surprising considering how the week has been going.

Fate.

Today was an amazing day really.  New semester, fresh start, new classes, and a bonus, you.

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