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I say never be complete. I say stop being perfect.
Everyone needs to stop breaking everything down into their ugliest parts and explaining things.
don’t see things for each microscopic atom that makes itself into something so much larger.
Whoever made them, made them impossible to see, so obviously they aren't meant to be. try to go places that you’ve never been allowed to, to see things that no one else ever has.
Fact is, we will die. But the goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.
something like a landmark, a piece of art, or even just a memory, as long as you get credit.
society is making an ideal picture that i don’t want to be apart of.-Crystal Bassous
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I am a free willed type of person who creates styles for the fun of it;
A human dynamite, don't trigger me- I may explode anytime. AN EXQUISITE ELEMENT of the periodic table, unlikely you'll ever know. I hate people who do not study for exams, you need to work for what you want. optimistic, there'll always be a rainbow after a rain, no matter how aggressive the rain is, just look for that silver lining in life. Nothing can stop me from reaching my dreams ! Sometimes I can be a little crazy , okay.. insane What's my secret to happiness? Music, family, friends and love ♪ just press play . ►
Sarah
Sixteen.
Canadian.Portuguese.Guyanese.
Scorpio.
Catholic.
Musician./Photographer/Doodler/Writer
My Stupid Mouth
Monday, March 30, 2009
Every been in one of those fantastical moods? Just like, an awesome mood at like 11:11pm (make a wish!) And nothing can dampen that mood? Well I am in one of those moods. It's amazing how things can be going so terrible, but it's like, fuck it. And you dance. That's right, I'm dancing, I'm dancing like a white chick to John Mayer. YEAH.
"here i stand six feet small" la la laaa.! ♪
Nothing beats a surprise Monday that actually turns out well and isn't shitty as fuck haha, that is why on this day. I am officially working towards being worry free! No more boys, no more family troubles, no. I'm focusing on what I need for once, instead on focusing on making everyone happy. This isn't as selfish as it may sound. I just am not going to be as much of a pushover as usual, I'm going to get in shape, study harder and take care of myself.
New goals open new doors so hey, let's go!
Z.
Where the Wild Things Are
If you're like me you've been biting your fingernails to the nubs waiting for footage of the Spike Jonze-directed, big-screen adaptation of Where The Wild Things Are. Without further adieu, I am pleased to present first movie trailer for your eyeballs' enjoyment.
I might post later on today, not really sure something good and exciting happened today so I might touch up on that later. For now, enjoy the trailer.
Z.
Pillow fights fucking rule.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Wicked !
Awesome night last night was. New Vietnamese restaurant downtown, so for my friends birthday a bunch of us had a grand ol' time. Bubble tea is disgusting, no matter what anyone says ! I promise you that. Got to catch up with some friends I haven't spoken to in a while. Still really don't like that Victor fellow, he's mean, but only to me so that makes him extra rude. Caught up with Cameron, missed that kid, hasn't been the same since he broke up with "the bitch". Seriously though, great night altogether, great laughs and even better memories. Stuff like this is what makes my world go 'round, cheesy, yet true. Life does really seem to be turning around though, maybe that's what positivity and prayer can do for you. My family seems to be making amends with each other, new home, meeting some new people and embracing new things (bubble tea) haha. It's great really, truly wonderful. I've been recently re-reading the book called He's Just Not That Into You, and it has really been a wake up call. That "guy" we'll refer to him as Joe, I've come to terms that he's really just not into me. Joe is a perfectly capable guy, and he just isn't showing any feelings or, anything. And if he isn't into me, I am perfectly able to move on, just like every other time. Sad, yet true. I'm just tired of waiting around for someone who will never actually feel the way I feel about them and return those feelings to me. Meh, life goes on, and it goes on on a trip to friggin CUBA! Actually, it might not even be Cuba yet, we haven't really decided and really need suggestions on where the hell to go for a first time vacation.
Currently just zoning out to some Lifestory:Monologue. Really great band, might have mentioned them already. Really love their album Hold Me In The Wind, My Friend. Sound familiar? Great sound though, really. >>CLICKK<<
There is a fine line between not liking someone, and then plain hating them. And with this one person, I think I created a whole new level of hate. What is it with people who just meet you and just decide, "I'm going to treat you like dirt because it's fun."
Ohh, and according to someone in my Honesty Box, I'm "white". Well thanks tips, I figured that out about five years ago, where have you been? But thanks for making sure I knew that, I knew you thought I didn't know but that's cool, just keep looking out.
Z.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
haha found this comic somewhere, might post them every so often just for the heck of it you know ?
Ew, parent-teacher interviews are tonight, I can only imagine what my teachers have to say about me. I'm pissed that I didn't get them an interview with my music teacher because that would have shone a light on the rest of the night, since my music teacher is the coolest and actually likes me HAHA .
Science test tomorrow, which means, yeap, 3A LUNCH ! Aren't you excited ? Haha of course there's only one reason I enjoy having that lunch, which I don't have to recap about. Although, nothing's really happening there, maybe it's just fun flirting you know ? Blahh, boys...
Totally getting better from this whole tonsilities plus cold or sinus infection or whatever the heck it was. Antibiotics are a life-saver, mmm...lifesavers... I haven't had one of those in years.
I have actually narrowed what I want to do when I am older to, criminologist, or musician. And really, I don't know what to do but I'm leaning towards criminologist because I love music, and I'm afraid if I make it a career or just a job, I won't have the same passion for it, but then again my passion might get stronger if I do... so confused !
Alright,
school first as my mother would say. (Actually, she just said that to me).
Z.
Just A Thought...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
So I thought I'd let you guys in on an amazing Internet whatever you may call it, person haha. Philip DeFranco is probably the most insightful, funny, and is just really really, well, cute. Anyways, he is quite witty per say, and you should totally check him out !
Alright, all the YouTube mania aside, (although I can;t promise anything) my day overall was alright. It started off with me feeling crappy, but around third period my antibiotics kicked in and I was feeling pretty decent. Actually, I was pretty much bouncing off the walls, (hmm, maybe I took TOO much medicine...)
Tomorrow is civvies, day, but I have no idea what I am going to wear. I have brand new kicks which I'm pumped to wear but other than that it's like, what the hell do I wear?!
My crazy friend and one of her friends dropped by my house today, and basically lurked my entire house, which was really weird. They raided my fridge, talked about how many teas I had in my house, and of course the one friend got really excited when he found out I had samurai swords in my house (my dad's, not mine). Ridiculous, yet funny and dubiously, great company for the short while. I ended up kicking them out just in the nick of time because pops came home earlier than expected. Funny how that worked out...
Side note, totally bummed that I might have to get my tonsils out, I really don't like the idea of undergoing a surgery, no matter how small it is. I don't like the fact that they have to put me under with the chance that I might not wake up or something, because with my luck, it definitely wouldn't wake up. In retrospect, I am psyched for the time off school I would get, however short that may be.
Ugh, just remember I have a chemistry unit test on Friday...hurray... well at least that means 3A lunch!
Okay, off track again. I recently saw a movie called I Love You, Man. FUNNIEST MOVIE EVER ! Seriously, if you want to go to a movie, this is the one to go with, as a date, group of friends or girls/guys night out, this movie fits any outing. I seriously was crying from laughing so hard.
Looking forward to this weekend, I actually have plans! My friend is turning 16 so we are going out to a Vietnamese restaurant to eat and then we're seeing a scary movie that I am actually looking forward to seeing, The Haunting Of Connecticut. Totally pumped for the bonding time with my friends, hopefully I am feeling better by then though, which looks iffy, but still, keeping my hopes up !
Watch them, rate them, pass them on, they might give you a chuckle.
MHMMM MINTY
Z.
So I Guess,...
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
"So I guess, I'm planning to take the fire escape, only thing is, it's a long way down..."
The above were lyrics from an awesome song by Adam Crossley. His album is called "Anvil of a Heart". Brilliant song, Fire Escape.
Anyways, news, news, news. Well, I have this thing called tonsilitis, and it sucks like a bitch. Only upside is I got to miss school today aha. This is a pretty much random and pointless blog and it seriously is not going to go anywhere because I just figured I'd write something .
UGH, life is so stressful lately, my classes aren't really heavy, but the one class is stressful to keep up with, which is why being sick today was really a disadvantage.
FML, you know what? I'm ending this blog because it is going no where, I will write when I have something to fucking say :)
Look at the link above and read it. It gave me a much needed chuckle considering the day I've had.
So basically, I can already tell that this March Break is going to suck monkey balls. So today, one of my friends called my damn cell phone while I'm sleeping, and wouldn't stop calling until I had agreed to hang out with them. Stupid, stupid, stupid. So I get there, and I'm fucking starving, and basically we are sitting around awkwardly while my friend makes out with his girlfriend (she's really nice though aha). But FML, like seriously stop with the PDA for two fucking seconds and eat your GOD DAMN SUB. Anyways, they were all just being rude (my friends, not the girlfriend lmfoa, she's nice). And I finally got pissed off, got my shit, and left. It was really quite annoying and a waste of my day, I should've turned off my damn phone and slept the day away like I had planned to in the first place! Anyways, it's done, and I am so done with them all. Like shit, you don't make racsict comments to your own fucking friends, I've had enough of that shit throughout my life, and it's even worse hearing it from someone you thought was a friend.
On a much happier note, my older sister gave birth on Friday the 13th bahaha. An adorable baby boy! He is the most adorable baby I have ever seen, and I have a feeling I'll be his favorite BAHAH. (inside joke...forget about it)
OH. I rediscovered my favorite musical soundtrack. RENT is simply the most amazing musical ever :) Download some of the songs from the movie, they're really good. My favorite songs are La Vie Boheme, Season of Love and Another Day.
So March Break...no real plans, most of my good friends have things to do or went away which sounds fun, I envy them ahah. One of my friends is on lockdown, so I won't be able to hang out with her this week or for a long while at that. I do have plans this Friday, so that hopefully will be fun.
Until next time.... Z.
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Sunday, March 8, 2009
Today tipped the balance on how shitty life can possibly get. My family has basically fallen apart and now I'm worried about how things will work out. I have faith that it will be for the best, but I still can't help but think that I might have to leave the ones I love and start over, and I don't think I'm strong enough to do that.
On the other hand, this turning point has brought some things to a different light. Like the fact that I am the rock that keeps my sister from making stupid choices or my mom from going off the deep end. Even though I probably couldn't support myself in a situation like this on my own, it's nice to see that I am appreciated and am actually needed, even if it isn't in the best of occurrences.
And also, it has also shown how much my friends appreciate me too, it's odd, before, it was always like there and gone. But with this new time (era?) it's forever, the friendships I have made. I've only told three people about this little set back, and I am pretty sure that with their help, I'll make it through. Actually scratch that, I am totally and completely sure that I will make it through this. I'm not the first person to deal with this sort of change, and sadly, and most certainly, I will not be the last.
It sucks, it really does, to see two people tear apart from each other, I don't think they actually realize how much it affects the audience, possibly more than it affects the people who began it all in the first place.
There is always two sides to one story of course, but in my opinion I do not care to hear a certain side because I know clearly that it is all bullshit. All my life, this and that, it doesn't matter what that person says to me anymore, it's done. I still love them of course, but there really isn't much else there, nothing else keeping this relationship alive, as much as the next one that comes along with nothing but that mutual feeling or obligation.
Aside from the crash course my life has taken, life outside the home has been picking up quite well. Friends, love, music, school work. I think I actually enjoyed a part of Religion class the other day, it was strange... Science, hm, finally started chemistry which is easy and just plain amazing, so I will enjoy flying through all that. Music, good news! Mr. A told me that during my senior years I can start playing trumpet as my secondary instrument! YAY! That means my mom and practically my entire family will be able to help me if I have difficulty doing this. Totally looking forward to that.
Also take note:: finally got the money for the Holly Springs Disaster show in March. OH WAIT. Marpril.
(Basically, Marpril=May/April and Julugust=July/August. Since October = eight and December = ten by combining those four months, it is apparent to then make October the eighth month and December the tenth. Follow along and spread the word, might start something...)
Anyways, the Holly Springs show, looking forward to that! Awesome hardcore bands, looking forward to just banging my head all night, letting all the stress escape from my body, it will be a night I will most definitely need I am guessing. Check Paparazzi for list of bands and Myspace pages and that jazz....
Z.
Well Hey There Ol' Chaps...
Friday, March 6, 2009
Today was a fairly good day I guess, classes were funny, although I bombed a music test....AND a pop quiz in science like wtf?
Is it just my imagination, or am I falling again for this guy? I mean, why should I let myself do this all over again, he didn't really hurt me in some ways I guess, but it hurts that I guess I never really got over him. As afraid as I am of getting hurt, I am more afraid of missing out and not taking this chance. Because, I never take chances, and I feel like this could be my one break, of all the shit I've been through. This could be it.
Take tonight for example, I guess there was flirting not sure, I know that he would never really do anything with our friends around and stuff. But even during the movie, there was...contact I guess, nothing too big or whatever, and then walking to Second Cup it was like....just flirting you know? It was fun, can't complain on how tonight turned out, but then again I don't really know what I would have expected in the first place.
Anyways, Taken....Taken taken taken... The movie was okay, definetly worth the thirty fucking bucks I spent...! I heard Watchmen was shitty, and on top of that 3 hours long. Yeah glad we didn't go see it, apparently it was lame. haha
Side note, I am confused about how life is turning out for me. I have off days and days that are amazing, and then there are the signs...but I don't know what they mean! It's so frusturating not knowing how people, especially him, feel!
