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I say never be complete. I say stop being perfect.
Everyone needs to stop breaking everything down into their ugliest parts and explaining things.
don’t see things for each microscopic atom that makes itself into something so much larger.
Whoever made them, made them impossible to see, so obviously they aren't meant to be. try to go places that you’ve never been allowed to, to see things that no one else ever has.
Fact is, we will die. But the goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.
something like a landmark, a piece of art, or even just a memory, as long as you get credit.
society is making an ideal picture that i don’t want to be apart of.-Crystal Bassous
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I am a free willed type of person who creates styles for the fun of it;
A human dynamite, don't trigger me- I may explode anytime. AN EXQUISITE ELEMENT of the periodic table, unlikely you'll ever know. I hate people who do not study for exams, you need to work for what you want. optimistic, there'll always be a rainbow after a rain, no matter how aggressive the rain is, just look for that silver lining in life. Nothing can stop me from reaching my dreams ! Sometimes I can be a little crazy , okay.. insane What's my secret to happiness? Music, family, friends and love ♪ just press play . ►
Sarah
Sixteen.
Canadian.Portuguese.Guyanese.
Scorpio.
Catholic.
Musician./Photographer/Doodler/Writer
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Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Oh man, religion project due on Friday, still haven't started my part of the project...SO DEAD. And on top of that I have a civics test tomorrow, and a chemistry unit test on Thursday on top of a stupid religion test too. WTH, if grade ten is like this, I am so fucked for grade eleven and twelve...
So there, for once I managed to get over a guy in record time. It took me approximately 16 hours to officially and safely get over him. Even though I am sort of bummed out that it didn't work, it's better than not knowing ever right? I'd rather get this part over with and move on, then get hurt later down the road and like I don't know....
Weather was shitty today, so lame. I liked the sun while it lasted.
I feel like pulling my hair out now, family life has gone down the drain, really need to get a job, there's just so much to do and I can't handle it all by myself.
Got report cards today, sort of pissed off about my marks, fucking careers teacher fucked up every one's marks it's ridiculous. Science, I'm disappointed, but I know I'll be able to pull it up significantly once we start biology it's easy. Religion, meh I thought I was failing, but the shockingly high mark I have in that class (not high - high but higher than I would have thought) is something I cannot complain about. Music, well 90% is pretty fucking awesome, and I believe I can still do better, two instruments, heck yes, my efforts will be duly noted. Hopefully I'll be able to get on honor roll this year, I don't think that will happen though considering my average last semester, 75 not bad, currently mine is 76.8, but I don't see it getting higher to average out both unless I pull some major smart shits.
Excited about one thing though. No actually two things, but I'm not really genuinely excited for one of the things but still, it's something to do. Fitzpatrick Incident show at St.Paul's is tomorrow, I am pretty excited, even if they did bump the price to $10... And on Friday, a party, apparently rumored to be the party to end all parties, but you know, whatever that means. I'm not into the party scene, but it's an excuse to dance, get drunk and get away from my shitty home life.
Alright, it's late. Toodles. (I promise never to say that again).
Z.
fill me in
Monday, April 27, 2009
okay, so many things have occured over the past several days since I last posted.
well first off. ITS SO FREAKING NICE OUT.!!!!!!so stop fucking reading this and get the fuck outside. NOWWWWWWW After you get your daily intake of vitamin C, you make continue reading... So, my school's semi formal was on Thursday night, pretty uneventful, except for people who were getting 'down and dirty', but of course it's never really a surprise. Danced with one person, big whoop, I can't really dance anyway, besides I don't need to rub my ass into some guys crotch to have a good time. A couple days ago, I got in a bit of trouble with my parents, and now I'm seeing a pysch. Yeah I know the proper term or whatever, but that's what he is to me. I hate sitting in that room. I hate knowing that that man couldn't give a shit about what I do, and he only pretends to care because he is getting something out of it. Ridiculous, and I really hope they don't put me on meds either, because I don't feel like walking around like a zombie, numb to everything and being uninteresting (as if I am either way haha).
Oh, and that 'guy' that I have fallen for, yeah it's going I guess, I am still as confused as ever, when I talk to him we totally connect, but sometimes he doesn't show anything, it's like....off and on, and I'm not sure if that's a bad sign or anything, I mean he is really shy and whatever but I don't know what to make of it anymore. (grr, stupid font, I don't know why it changed itself half way through).
I talked to one of his friends, and I know they are pretty close, the three of these guys tell each other everything pretty much so I learn a lot when I decide to listen haha. I was told that he was afraid of being shot down, which now makes me confused as to what kind of signals I'm sending this kid.
Boys are stupid. Let's just end that at that.
Another thing interesting, I have finally realized that I can't allow myself to fall in love with others. Now I still love my mommy and daddy and whatever, but it's other people. I have this really close friend, and I love him, but I can't love him at the same time. I just don't want to, it's so weird.... He loves me, but I don't get that feeling because I only love him like a brother. But the worst part is, knowing that I can't really love him back and it's only one sided. I hate that he cares for me so much and I can't give much in return. Maybe for him me just being there is good enough, but I'm afraid there will come a day when I can't give him anymore than that and he will want more. I'm scared of letting him down.
Alright, so on Friday I believe.... yeah friday, it was a P.A. Day (woot) so and bunch of friends and I decided to go watch Obsessed which is possibly one of the best movies I have seen this year so far. I suggest you go see it, but only on a day when the weather is crappy because you shouldn't be inside on days like these, and I hope there are a lot of them this summer. So we watched the movie and just hung around Booster Juice and then Second Cup, fun times, love hanging with my friends, I never would have thought I would be in my own position today if I was thinking about this kind of stuff about three years ago, or before high school or whatever.
Wow this is getting really lengthy....
Alright so.. one last thing then, I found this website, and it's pretty self explanatory when you see it, so check it out and donate. It's a non-profit organization called Just Yell Fire. Just check out the website (hint, click the bolded words to get to the site genius)
Watch the movie thing they have there, it's worth watching.
Z.
Don't Worry, New Post Coming In A Moment...
Monday, April 20, 2009
cut, sneeze. whoops
Sunday, April 19, 2009
as emo as that title sounds, seems fitting i guess? don't worry, i haven't lost my mind, i thought it was funny-ish.
anyways, i hate when people close to you pull that one line, you know the line.
"if you loved me, you wouldn't (fill in gut wrenching line here)"
fuuuuck.
life just got more complicated.
don't ask, just click
Thursday, April 16, 2009
you can't play on broken strings...
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Lately, life has been tough. But I'm not going to whine and complain, like I usually do. I've come to the realization that sometimes life isn't always what you want it to be, but you have to make due with what you have and go with it for the time being. Anyways... GET FRIGGIN STOKED Green Day's new album is out. ah WOOHOO
21st Century Breakdown. AHWOOHOO
First...
Okay let's just get this little video out of my system to share with you guys and then I will post another blog .
Friday, April 3, 2009
nothing worse than being stuck at home with nothing to do on a friday night! didn't make any plans, and well really, didn't attempt to make any. Meh, I'll just sit here and watch videos, like every other day haha. Party tomorrow, awesome awesome awesome ! Z.
So, For Once There Won't Be Any Videos.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Great day today. Well, it started off with that stupid literacy test that the government made us do, I bet they sat up in their fancy, swanky offices and went, "hmmm, how else can we fuck over the students of today?" And one fat bald man whose wife is eighteen years of age went, "Oh, I know the perfect plan!" Fuck that fat bald old man....making us write a test, as if we don't have enough of that crap already.
Anyways, I know I bitched about that literacy test, it wasn't all that hard, I can't fathom how people actually fail. But besides the test, today was really, really, great. Semi-formal is approaching soon, I'm excited, got my dress and shoes and all I need is a hair-do.
Ahh, today was extra-ordinary, so much happened. Like that stuff with him, haha haven't gushed for awhile haven't I? And I won't start now, all I'm saying is that there was a connection, and I currently can't get this stupid smile off my face. (It's actually starting to hurt a bit).
Currently jamming to the movie soundtrack August Rush. Exceeeeeeellent!! I love it, love it, love it! I love all of the music on this soundtrack, and the actual movie itself is not that half bad.
Today, Spider Jones came to our school to talk about...well stuff.... he's a pretty cool guy, old friend of my pops. He's got a website, google it I'm too lazy to link.
Z.
College Humor
So I am in love with these videos by college humor, funniest videos ever ! These people are pure genius! I love coming home to watch these things, so I'm feeling like posting a bunch of vids that are pretty decent.
So... today was April Fools Day and I'm pretty bummed that I didn't get to prank anyone, although I did witness a pretty funny prank. Some kid got pants to the point where his underwear came down too, pretty classic, only because the only thing seen was his ass, no balls included ... yeah that wasn't very funny.. Anyways, I'm going to wrap this up, hope you had a good April Fools Day, hopefully you did all the pranking and didn't end up like that kid in my fourth period class.
