step into my insanity...
DISCLAIMER:: Do not read if you have eleven toes. Serious side effects may include: raging and trolling.
I say never be complete. I say stop being perfect.
Everyone needs to stop breaking everything down into their ugliest parts and explaining things.
don’t see things for each microscopic atom that makes itself into something so much larger.
Whoever made them, made them impossible to see, so obviously they aren't meant to be. try to go places that you’ve never been allowed to, to see things that no one else ever has.
Fact is, we will die. But the goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.
something like a landmark, a piece of art, or even just a memory, as long as you get credit.
society is making an ideal picture that i don’t want to be apart of.-Crystal Bassous
I am a free willed type of person who creates styles for the fun of it;
A human dynamite, don't trigger me- I may explode anytime.
AN EXQUISITE ELEMENT of the periodic table, unlikely you'll ever know.
I hate people who do not study for exams, you need to work for what you want.
optimistic, there'll always be a rainbow after a rain, no matter how aggressive the rain is, just look for that silver lining in life.
Nothing can stop me from reaching my dreams !
Sometimes I can be a little crazy , okay.. insane
What's my secret to happiness? Music, family, friends and love ♪ just press play . ►
Sarah
Sixteen.
Canadian.Portuguese.Guyanese.
Scorpio.
Catholic.
Musician./Photographer/Doodler/Writer
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Monday, April 27, 2009
okay, so many things have occured over the past several days since I last posted.well first off.
ITS SO FREAKING NICE OUT.!!!!!! so stop fucking reading this and get the fuck outside.
NOWWWWWWW
After you get your daily intake of vitamin C, you make continue reading...
So, my school's semi formal was on Thursday night, pretty uneventful, except for people who were getting 'down and dirty', but of course it's never really a surprise. Danced with one person, big whoop, I can't really dance anyway, besides I don't need to rub my ass into some guys crotch to have a good time.
A couple days ago, I got in a bit of trouble with my parents, and now I'm seeing a pysch. Yeah I know the proper term or whatever, but that's what he is to me. I hate sitting in that room. I hate knowing that that man couldn't give a shit about what I do, and he only pretends to care because he is getting something out of it. Ridiculous, and I really hope they don't put me on meds either, because I don't feel like walking around like a zombie, numb to everything and being uninteresting (as if I am either way haha).
Oh, and that 'guy' that I have fallen for, yeah it's going I guess, I am still as confused as ever, when I talk to him we totally connect, but sometimes he doesn't show anything, it's like....off and on, and I'm not sure if that's a bad sign or anything, I mean he is really shy and whatever but I don't know what to make of it anymore.
(grr, stupid font, I don't know why it changed itself half way through).
I talked to one of his friends, and I know they are pretty close, the three of these guys tell each other everything pretty much so I learn a lot when I decide to listen haha. I was told that he was afraid of being shot down, which now makes me confused as to what kind of signals I'm sending this kid.
Boys are stupid. Let's just end that at that.
Another thing interesting, I have finally realized that I can't allow myself to fall in love with others. Now I still love my mommy and daddy and whatever, but it's other people. I have this really close friend, and I love him, but I can't love him at the same time. I just don't want to, it's so weird.... He loves me, but I don't get that feeling because I only love him like a brother. But the worst part is, knowing that I can't really love him back and it's only one sided. I hate that he cares for me so much and I can't give much in return. Maybe for him me just being there is good enough, but I'm afraid there will come a day when I can't give him anymore than that and he will want more. I'm scared of letting him down.
Alright, so on Friday I believe.... yeah friday, it was a P.A. Day (woot) so and bunch of friends and I decided to go watch Obsessed which is possibly one of the best movies I have seen this year so far. I suggest you go see it, but only on a day when the weather is crappy because you shouldn't be inside on days like these, and I hope there are a lot of them this summer. So we watched the movie and just hung around Booster Juice and then Second Cup, fun times, love hanging with my friends, I never would have thought I would be in my own position today if I was thinking about this kind of stuff about three years ago, or before high school or whatever.
Wow this is getting really lengthy....
Alright so.. one last thing then, I found this website, and it's pretty self explanatory when you see it, so check it out and donate. It's a non-profit organization called Just Yell Fire. Just check out the website (hint, click the bolded words to get to the site genius)
Watch the movie thing they have there, it's worth watching.
Z.
