step into my insanity...
DISCLAIMER:: Do not read if you have eleven toes. Serious side effects may include: raging and trolling.
I say never be complete. I say stop being perfect.
Everyone needs to stop breaking everything down into their ugliest parts and explaining things.
don’t see things for each microscopic atom that makes itself into something so much larger.
Whoever made them, made them impossible to see, so obviously they aren't meant to be. try to go places that you’ve never been allowed to, to see things that no one else ever has.
Fact is, we will die. But the goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.
something like a landmark, a piece of art, or even just a memory, as long as you get credit.
society is making an ideal picture that i don’t want to be apart of.-Crystal Bassous
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Okay so I lied.
I said that I wouldn't change the layout of my blog anymore.
But, I lied and I'm sorry, I just couldn't help it.
Oh and I sort of started a tumblr...I know, I've cheated on your blogspot, and I want to come back to you.
Tumblr is lame and confusing and gives me no artistic freedom with the layouts.
But
you my lovely blogspot. YOU give me the freedom that I need.
So hopefully you'll take me back?
If You Could Read My Mind You'd Be In Tears
Saturday, February 20, 2010
H'okay, so I wrote this poem thingy, and it's not very good, but it turned out better than I thought it would. Don't get mad at me because it doesn't rhyme or anything, but still.
Note that it isn't true but it sort of reflects how I felt at the present moment.
You don't love me
And you never did.
It's been three months since you done called me,
What is it that I had done to make you run?
I gave you my everything and my all
I gave you me
And still every night
I lay awake dying
Waiting to hear your voice
Funny how I used to love you
Breathe you, hold you, know you
But now there is nothing left of you and I
And all that is left is these tears that I cry
Because you lied
Because you told me you loved me
That you would never leave me
That you would always be there for me
But here I am love
You told me you loved me
And you left behind your own son
Valentine's Day
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Valentine's Day, as I saw it before once, was just another holiday to spend money and to have it rubbed in your face that you're single, eating chocolates by yourself...
But, I guess everyone who is single (almost everyone) feels down around this time of year, and that it's probably always significantly better when you have someone special to share it with.
And I know, it may sound like I'm rubbing it in, but let me indulge myself, this is the first Valentine's Day that I have actually had a Valentine, and not even a spur-of-the-moment date, but an actual boyfriend, someone I love and trust and want to spend time.
Yeah, that's the best kind of Valentine.
So let me divulge on how this spectacular day went.
Although it has nothing to do with Valentine's Day, I've started practicing with the concert band that my uncle and his father are a part of, called the Music Society of St. Helen's (may be flipped a bit, it's a porkchop band hehe). But it was really fun, and to my surprise, I was able to play along with most of the songs that were practiced, that is, once I got over my horrified demeanor.
So after the practice, I picked up the love of my life from his house, and we were dropped off at my house. We hung around for a bit, and we decided to go out for dinner at Japanese Buffet, which, is quite delicious actually. After dinner, we watched Avatar, the greatest movie of all time, of all time!!!
Afterwards, we walked home, and this little trek was quite romantic to me, I enjoy late night walks, no matter how cheesy anyone says that is.
The most memorable part of the evening, was when I was laying my head on your chest, listening to your heart beat, and you said something like "I wrote you this song, it only beats for you..." and boy, well, you know my heart only beats for you, and saying that drives me even crazier still for you.
DFTBA and don't forget to love strong.
